feeling a little down

Hey y’all, I really am coming to vent because i just feel so sad. i feel like i won’t ever get to be a mom and it’s something i yearn for so much. I took a test and I got faint lines on it. I waited two days to retestNow i have no line at all and im 2 days late on my period. A couple of friends were in my room when that lines came up in the time frame. Almost immediately actually. and now it’s like everyone is so excited for nothing. first response really sucks with their lines like i’m so sad and had my hopes up. I have a blood test tomorrow but i just feel discouraged i really don’t want to hear a confirmed “yea you’re not pregnant”. Just wanted to vent a little bit :( i had a miscarriage in 2019 and i just really thought this was my rainbow baby.