Negative feelings towards planned pregnancy

Hi guys! I need help & you all never let me down.

A little back story: my husband and I had a missed miscarriage at about 8 weeks in June of 2020, it was traumatizing, horrible and wouldn’t wish it on my worst enemy. Fast forward a year later, we moved across the country, got our lives in order and decided to actually start trying in August of 2021. First month, nothing, I was pretty upset thinking we’d get pregnant right away. September came around and after being 4 days late I took a pregnancy test which had the faintest line, but I knew something was not right since that line should have been MUCH darker for how late I was. That unfortunately ended in a chemical pregnancy. After discussing with my OBGYN, we got the okay to try again & got pregnant in October 2021! When I first got a positive I was over the moon but also so insanely scared. pregnancy after loss is no joke. I went in for two blood draws, my levels looked great. Now the part where I’m needing help is how I’m feeling emotionally. When I first saw those positive tests I was on top of the world, but I feel like once I hit about 5w, something switched in my brain. I’m just not excited or happy or even scared/anxious like I was before anymore. Im now 6w2d and feel so sad and ungrateful, I wanted this pregnancy SO BADLY and now that it’s here, I’m not feeling those positive feelings I thought I would be and was originally. Has anyone ever dealt with negative feelings towards your planned pregnancy? Maybe I’m just having trouble building a connection with this baby but there’s another part of me that thinks maybe, something is wrong and my mind/body is trying to prepare me. When I had my missed miscarriage, this same thing happen to be mentally and I just can’t help but compare my feelings to last time. Someone please help! Thank you 🙏🏻