I must know, if there’s a point in your walk with Christ that you know for certain you’ve earned your place in heaven.

I’ve never felt worthy, I’ve never felt confident. And honestly I just feel like I haven’t gotten my ticket to heaven yet.

So many people have their own opinions, but I get whip lash every time I try and find an answer.

So let me make this clear, I am 21, I am pregnant with my 2nd child and no. I am not married.

So yes, there is a ginormous problem with that, premarital sex, a baby before marriage, and the one I’m having a baby with does not believe in god, but he also would never ask me to stop attending church.

So whenever I have Bible studies, talk about it with my religious grandparents, reach out to other Christians, I get so many answers.

“You’re living in sin, you will not make it to heaven”

“You’re not supposed to have different beliefs with your significant other”

“It’s okay to have different beliefs than your boyfriend, you could be the one to invite Christ into his life”

“People can’t tell you you’re going to hell that’s judging and that’s a sin itself”

“It talks a lot about that kind of stuff in the Bible and is very frowned upon”

I just can’t even fathom being placed in hell. And I fear it every day. I pray so hard about it but then I get told “he eventually stops forgiving you if you keep letting it happen” which I totally understand, but my boyfriend is set on waiting another 2 years to be married.. and even then it’s not fixing the problem that’s going on now.

I know we are sinners and we sin every day, and the only sin That people are telling me I’m going to hell for is having sex. And everyone is talking about the rapture coming, and the stress about it all is just eating me alive and keeping me up at night, and constantly making my stomach hurt.

I could never make it in hell, and I can surely tell you I would never make it being left behind in the rapture. I just can’t do it. IM TERRIFIED