Adoption

Please no judgment I’m 19 I have a 2 year old daughter and am currently 15 weeks pregnant I just started my life getting into a good job bought my first car outright my daughter is living very well taken care of I don’t think I can handle a baby right now and my bf (the father) doesn’t treat me good we live together and he will go days without even talking to me and reject me whenever I try to come cuddle up to him while asleep or anything I feel so alone and just depressed over this all I want to consider giving this baby up for adoption but I feel like I’d be a bad person for already having one child and putting this one up for adoption I feel like I’d be really judged and that it would be very weird for me to put this baby up for adoption since I already have one kid usually it’s the other way around a woman puts her first up for adoption then has more children later on etc I don’t know what to do though I need somebody to talk to who isn’t a friend all of my friends have no clue what this is like because we’re all young I just feel so stuck and like I’ve ruined our lives with this but then I see all the women who can’t have babies and really want them and would love this baby it gives me hope I have no idea what is best here.