Pregnant and desperate

I just found out I am pregnant. Hubby and I have been trying for our 2nd. I am 4 weeks. I know, so early! I’ve smoke marijuana for many years. I stopped cold Turkey with my first baby, I found out maybe at 6 weeks and now with this pregnancy, I recently stopped but so tempted. Again, me before pregnancy I would smoke almost everyday , but my hubby got some good stuff and I’m crying in the inside. Lol the mom guilt is real. I want to take a hit so bad but I can’t. My first pregnancy I was high risk and more than likely I’ll be high risk again. Not asking for advice, I just wanted to vent. The addiction is real, it goes and comes. I kinda wish I smoked like it was my last before I took that pregnancy test lol. I kinda just want to take a last one good hit and feel better.