bf & porn

kaz

i just need to get someone else’s opinion because this is eating me up. so i accidentally found the porn that my boyfriend watches, i was just trying to type my user in his reddit app when i found his porn search’s. he was away from his phone for awhile, so curiosity got the better of me and i looked at his reddit history and it was filled with porn. but it was just really skinny girls , with small boobs, which i don’t have. and i think he looks at this stuff pretty much everyday. i knew he looked a porn prior but he told me he only looks at pictures and never really needs it anymore. i know that’s a lie now so i feel a bit hurt that he lied. i am slightly worried he has a porn addiction since he looks at it so much, but idk how much is normal for guys. after i found this out we still had sex even tho i was quite upset but i noticed after we do it, sometimes he’ll go to the bathroom for a super long time after we do it, like today. i feel like he’s looking at porn. i’m scared i’m not what he visually wants, since the girls he looks at, are complete opposite of me. and when having sex now, i’m scared hes thinking about porn. i wanna talk to him about this, but since i did end up invading his privacy, even though accidental, i don’t know how to approach it without telling him i looked through his phone:/ i stopped looking after reddit because i just felt so sick to my stomach. i feel like he lies every time he tells me he loves my body. i don’t know what to do. idk just getting someone else’s perspective might help me calm down. i know i sound crazy for being upset cuz i was okay with him looking at that because i know all guys do , i think just seeing what he looks at, is eating me up inside.