2nd miscarriage in 6 months - what’s wrong with me?

I’ve just found out yesterday that I’m going through a anembryonic pregnancy. At my ultrasound, I was told I had a gestational sack and yolk sack but no fetal pole and was measuring at 7W & 2d when my logs all say I should be 9 weeks.

My previous miscarriage was the first week of June 2021.

The first one absolutely crushed me. We thought this was our miracle baby to be announced Christmas Day but someone or something had other plans.

I don’t understand what happened… the first one there was no explanation and this was put down to chromosome abnormalities. I can’t go through this again - I’m falling back into the depression stage where I want to harm myself to numb the pain. My body has failed me.

I’m not eligible for IVF treatments because I’m not classed as “medically infertile”

How do I get answers. I just want a baby. I need a baby. This is what I long for - to be a wife and a mum.