I feel like I did this to myself

I’m not IN love, but I do love him. I just wanna be with him all the time. I constantly want his hands on me when I’m around him. His name in my text notifications makes me light up. I get sad when I don’t hear back from him and jealous when he interacts with other girls in a flirtatious way. He knows I love him, and he loves me too, but just as friends. And I don’t know what to do because the moment I laid eyes on him, everyone told me I was gonna fall. I said I wouldn’t. And yet here we are.

I know I’m not special, he loves all his girl friends. But why can’t I be special for just one minute?