Marriage sucks

I’ve been trying soooo hard not to have a mentally break down. But things lately have been sooooooo stressful!!!! It’s not even so much the financial part of it cause bills are gonna be there regardless. And having a PARTNER you can get through that together. What’s really been draining me is feeling alone in this. I’ve been married less than a year and I HATE BEING MARRIED!!! I know it may sound bad, but it’s the truth. I hate that without a second thought I’d do whatever it takes to make my husband happy but I’m not getting the same energy. I hate that I’m constantly giving and not getting much in return. I hate that my mind & body craves to be touched and awaken but yet I lay next to a man that holds my heart. I hate being in a marriage that lacks romance and laughter and the kind of joy that makes u laugh until u cry. I hate not feeling sexy, and being shown affection without being asked. So if anyone asks how’s marriage life, I HATE THE EXPERIENCE!!