Ttc again

Anyone else ttc again ? I was pregnant but I decided after a lot of back and forth not to continue the pregnancy as I would have been due at my eldest sons birthday and baby's first birthday and I had a traumatic birth in may this year which made me miss my son's birthday and caused me a lot a distress so the fear of it happening again lead me to my decision which has been very hard to come to terms with as I did want another. Me and my partner have today decided we're ready to actively ttc and although I feel guilty and upset trying 4 months after a termination I am also so excited to be trying for our final baby