I was clean for 13 days & then I just had an urge. So, I relapsed. I'm not proud of it. At all. But they're not even that deep so I don't know if they'd be considered "cuts". They're not bloody either. I doubt they will scar but I want them too. I often compare my scars & cuts too others wishing mine would scat like theirs even though I know it's not a competition obviously. Somehow my mind still finds a way to think it is. I really want to get help, but I also don't. This is so confusing. If any of you have any suggestions on how to stay clean or ask for help please tell me.