Hey my name is Shayna I was in a pretty violent relationship for 5 years I got hooked on multiple substances in this 5 year period and that caused us to lose our two beautiful little boys. I went to rehab last June to start fighting to get them back and about a month after I got out he killed himself. He was the love of my life and honestly idk how to deal with it. He may not have been the best husband/lover to me but he was an amazing dad. Now I have a 1 and a 2 year old to raise and I'm terrified for when they come home to live with me.