Postpartum body struggles

I’m literally so upset about my postpartum body. I gained a little over 40 pounds in my pregnancy at my 8 week appointment I was 138 pounds and right before I gave birth I was somewhere around 180. So far at 8 weeks postpartum I’m around 160. I’m just so upset that I’m gonna have to struggle to lose all this weight I feel so shitty about my body. I have never felt worse about my image. I hate my body and my boobs now. I thought I was confident person before I was pregnant I never really struggled with these issues. Now I literally cry when I look in the mirror. I hate having sex because I feel disgusting. I’m having a hang up I don’t wanna except my body because I don’t wanna look like this the rest of my life. I’m struggling.