anyone else feel this way?

I use to be obsessed with getting pregnant, always having sex when I’m suppose to, looking at baby things, symptom spotting, literally everything you can think of! Recently I thought I finally succeeded in getting pregnant, my period was 4 days late & next thing you know AF had arrived.. that opened my eyes, not sure negatively or what.

I cried for days, and now I’m just in this slump of the attitude “I don’t care to get pregnant, if it happens then it happens.” 🤷🏻‍♀️ kinda sucks but I’ve been doing this for what seems to be forever (a year and some change) and it’s hard when nothing is working.