So my boyfriend and I have been together almost 7 years. We have been trying for a child since 2016 when I had a miscarriage. Our whole relationship has been based on nothing but drugs pretty much. I did use before I got pregnant but not the same thing he still is to this day. I stopped cold turkey as soon as I thought I was pregnant. He has not and probably never will. He has a serious problem.

I have told him time and time again that I am not going to live the rest of my life like this and he can't seem to get it through his head. He cheated on me in 2017 and I'm still hurt by it because I never got the whole truth and never will. He has been in and out of jail so many times. He accuses me of cheating all the time and I have never been unfaithful to him, even all the times he's been in jail. At this point I am not sure what needs to be done. He isn't changing and making himself better and I don't think he ever will to be honest. He hasn't in 7 years. I have been providing everything and paying for everything the whole time. I think he is just using me at this point.

I told him last night that I am not living my life like this and that I am going to walk the hell away from him and that he needs to get his crap together. He stresses me out so much and that is something I don't need. I am high risk and I am trying to do everything possible to keep this pregnancy healthy and happy and he is not helping in any way at all. He doesn't help pay bills, rent, for groceries, for necessities or anything else. I honestly think it is time for me and this baby to do this on our own and for me to start focusing on what makes me happy and putting me and this pregnancy first over anything and everything else. I think that is the decision I have made. I don't want my child around this lifestyle and I am a bit concerned that things are never going to change and are never going to get better.

I was prepared to do everything on my own during my first pregnancy in 2014 before I lost him at 20 weeks and I am prepared this time as well. I know I am strong enough to do it alone if I have to and I am fully capable of it also. Thank you ladies for reading and listening. I appreciate it. Any advice would be greatly appreciated!