Toxic relationship

I wanna leave my toxic relationship behind but I can’t leave and idk why. He has threaten to send my nudes to my family, told me i deserve to be beaten, this past summer he beat me up and I went to jail for assault of a family member. He lied to the cops saying he pushed me in self defense and I hit my head that’s why I had to get stitches. I told him if he really wants to be with me he owes my parents and siblings an apology and he doesn’t even believe that he needs to apologize for anything! Last night I accidentally spilled our weed to roll a joint with on the floor. That upset me and he threw fit. I decided to pick up the pieces on the ground rolled a joint like he wanted AND he criticized my joint. He told me “yeah just stop talking”. Why can I not leave this relationship? Like what is wrong with me? I have no one to vent to. I’m a January Aquarian and he’s a March pisces. Idk if that has something to do with it. I honestly just need really good girl friends to lift me up. I’m such a beautiful young lady. I deserve better.