Emotions in limbo 😩

Oookay so here's a timeline of why my emotions are a hot ass mess.

● January 1st-3rd: faint positives on 3 different brands. (Yay!) That puts me right at 4 weeks so super early.

● January 6th: at work in L&D, I start bleeding like I started my period with cramping so I consult the on call doctor who orders HCG labs. Labs come back with an HCG of 85. Tells me to come to her office on January 10th for another blood draw.

● January 6th-9th: period like bleeding..red & brown. I'm really sad because I'm sure this is a loss.

● January 10th: go for the appt, urine test pops up positive quickly (more quickly than mine did the week before) so she orders labs to track my HCG as it drops because we are thinking it's an early loss. She does a quick exam, just a little old blood she cleans up. At this point I'm only spotting brown, old blood when I wipe.

● January 11th: I am still only spotting the old blood when I wipe. I get my results & am surprised to find out I went from an 85 Thursday night to 327. She wants me to come back for another draw in the morning to see if it's still rising.

My emotions are in limbo..I am not gonna get my hopes up but when I tell you I was shocked it went up. Whew. 🙃