Okay so I’m going to try and keep it as short as possible. My fiancé of 4 years left me when we moved across the state. He had been actively talking to girls on most social medias, but it was always promises to change. Eventually he left me and came back under the conditions to change. He did not he treated me very badly while constantly cheating and lying and neglecting my needs. I eventually grew the balls this past week and actually left after finding more recent conversations and he blew up while he was drinking. Obviously has said and done things I can’t forgive nor do I have trust for him. The day after I left he got laid into by his friends about how stupid he was essentially and he now sees how we was so wrong and sorry and has been trying VERY hard to make it up to me.

I’ve started taking interest in someone else and don’t feel like it’s fair to my ex to let him keep trying to “fix” things.

The struggle comes in when I have nowhere to go, no family out here , no friends , no money ( we share a bank account ) and just about everything else is shared and I have to come back every day to where WE stay. He is making me feel bad because now he’s finally being the man I needed and I don’t want to walk away from that and he has made me feel like he can’t ever live without me and I’m the only one that makes him be better and his reason to live.. I don’t want that stress and I don’t want to just up and leave him he’s not okay mentally and I wouldn’t leave anyone alone when they are in that state.

I’ve expressed this situation and my feeling to my new prospective partner and they are absolutely amazing at handling it. I still love my ex in the sense I want to see him be okay and the best he can be but it can’t be with me and I don’t know what to do.. I wanted it to be me for so long but now that I’m mentally detached I see him emotionally hurting and it still hurts me but I know if I don’t get out somehow I may never get the opportunity with this new man again or my ex will just go back to being the same way and the cycle repeats.

I know I’m a perder world what is “right” but emotions are complicated ..