Blindsided

I went in to the clinic today to start my next cycle. This time they had me set up an appointment before they even saw me and I asked why. They said if I don't get pregnant this cycle the appointment is to discuss what my final options are and how many times each of those can be tried. I had no idea I was so close to being given up on. I don't know if I would ever be able to afford <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IVF</a> or adoption but I don't know if my heart could take me giving up on this. I wouldn't be able to stay off birth control and hope the stars aligned because it could seriously and negatively impact my health. I know I need to stay positive but after this I feel shell shocked and really have no idea what to do.....