39 weeks and 2 days. Going crazy 😪

Went in for a Membrane sweep today , but couldn't do it because I was just a finger tip dilated.. FINGER TIP!!😭

I've been having these weird intense period type cramps all night , went in for a stress test, baby is doing all good and they did not detect any contractions. Which is a bummer. Because I've been getting them crampy pains every half hour or so ,but disappointed that it's nothing.

I am going crazy 😪. I know the baby will come when it's ready and all that, but I'm so disappointed that all the stuff I did was for nothing. I ate dates religiously on a daily basis, did ball exercises and walking and all this did nothing for me. I was so looking forward to doing a vbac , but I guess it's gonna be a repeat C section for me since they will not induce and I have to spontaneously go into labour. I just give up😐

So emotional today 😭