Ever since I had Covid months ago, I have felt horribly. So the consensus is, I have the dreaded Long Covid. I never feel good anymore. I wake up as tired as I was the night before, even after sleeping 9 hours, and I normally wake up with a headache. Today I woke up with a migraine. I never have any energy to do anything. I also cannot concentrate on anything. People will talk to me and I only catch half of what they’re saying and it takes me a second to process it.

I’m a SAHM to two kids, 3 and 1. I don’t have the ability to do anything with them anymore. We wake up, I make them breakfast, and then I put on the TV with some toys in the living room and let them do whatever all morning while I sit on the couch. It’s all I can do. Sometimes I manage to do some laundry. Next thing I know it’s lunch time, I make them lunch, and when I’m done cleaning them up, they take a little nap. During the nap I just sit too. I rest more. When they wake up my 3 year old begs to go outside and ride his bike. I manage to take a walk around the neighborhood with them. When I get back I am so exhausted I just sit some more and let them do whatever. They tear up the house because I can’t do anything constructive with them. My husband gets home. We have dinner. I clean up the kitchen. I rest some more. They get a bath and go to bed, and I go to bed with them, sometimes as early as 8:30. I have no romantic interest in my husband anymore. All I want to do is sleep and be left alone. Sometimes the kids fight and cry and I can’t even get off the couch to intervene.

I just don’t know what to do anymore. I have no energy to do anything. A small errand seems like climbing a mountain. I registered my 3 year old for PreK in the fall but they want me to drop off the paperwork in person and I simply cannot find the energy or will to do it. I feel like I’m failing because I always feel so sick and run down.

Is anyone else in this boat? Or anyone else deal with Long Covid? I need a light at the end of the tunnel.

(Please don’t anyone mention that f’ing vaccine. I got vaccinated and still got Covid.)