Anyone else not getting anxious or excited during the TWW

Anyone else not getting anxious or excited during the TWW any more? We’ve been TTC for 9 months now. In previous months I would get so anxious and excited the days leading up to AF just thinking of the possibility that I might get my BFP. This cycle emotionally I’ve changed. I’m pretty much numb now because I know AF is coming. 5 days til she arrives and I can feel her getting ready to show her ugly face.

I’m almost 31. My husband just turned 32. We both wish we would’ve started trying years ago.