I am currently pregnant with my fiancé and I first child (my first, his second) and honestly the pregnancy and my relationship is very terrible 😞. I really hate being pregnant I have not enjoyed a single second of it so far. I keep having cramps, I sometimes bleed, I can’t really eat anything without wanting to vomit, when I don’t want to vomit I am hella nauseous, my body doesn’t feel like mine, I don’t feel comfortable in anything and worst I don’t feel connected to my baby at all and it’s making me even more depressed (yes I suffered for depression pre-pregnancy). Now my relationship. I feel like I am putting my fiancé in a lot of Financial burden. I would normally pay 4 of the bills and pay of the groceries and He would just have to pay the rent and car insurance and his credit cards but now I can’t do that because my hours got cut. I am looking for a new job but they are all full time and I am currently still in school. He is also facing a financial set back at his job because of Covid and has to do Uber& DoorDash to make extra money. We went from 2 cars to 1 and now that car is having issues and if that was enough I have ran out of Financial aid for college. I have tried student loans but I don’t qualify I have also tried scholarships but nothing many are there for my major and seniors in there last semester. I am completely stressed and overwhelmed to the point where I had a whole break down and told him I was gonna drop out until later because I don’t want to put the pressure of paying for my education on him because I see how stress he is now and it’s breaks my heart knowing that our current situation is my fault. I should have insisted i leave my mommy house on my own and he stays where he is because he/we wouldn’t have to worry about all these bills but now he isn’t talking to me. He said it’s because I told him that everything is all is fault and if I was living in my own without him I wouldn’t have to worry about anything. I never told him that and when I said I never told you that this is your fault I have constantly said it’s mine why the heck would I be depressed more than usual and crying my eyes out if I think this was your fault. He is still mad and we have spoken in days. I also don’t feel like he wants our baby. He keeps referring to it as my baby, I have my baby now never says our baby or his baby. We first agreed on having an abortion but then he changed his mind, because “I seem like I am attach and wanna keep it” just because I asked if he is sure because this isn’t something that can be undone. All of this is just making me more depressed, tried and uninterested in everything. What do I do?