Aloholic husband vent 😤

He had a terrible episode this past weekend. We ended up going to urgent care. His symptoms pointed to a heart attack. After his heart seemed to be “ok”, they referred us to a gastroenterologist. He’s been having issues regarding his bowels for about a year now anyway. We had an appointment but they got us in sooner. He’s scheduled for an upper and lower scope next week. I think he has major damage from all the years drinking. They advised him not to drink at all. He’s also on medications to help with ulcers and reflux. After being in and out of drs Monday/Tuesday and me being really worried, I come home tonight with dinner and he’s outside DRINKING. Literally 3 days earlier he was dying and could barely function. I’m so disgusted and sick to my stomach. I babied him and helped him all weekend. He was so weak, he was sweating, chest pains, couldn’t eat, puking out everything. Told me he wouldn’t dare to drink for a long time. Said he was scared for his life. Now I feel like a fool. 💔😒