Feeling discouraged

I’ve been trying to conceive ever since my miscarriage in October 2021. I know that I have not been trying that long and it can take up to a year for some healthy couples. But when I was first pregnant it happened the first month we tried. I kept hearing about how after a miscarriage you are so much more fertile but I have found this to not be true for me. Now I’m struggling with if I should keep using opk’s to track or just stop tracking and see what happens. The only problem is I like the feeling of control of doing the opks (until it comes down to the time in which you could start hcg testing and get a positive). Then I become a little obsessive about hcg testing and I’m always disappointed. Does anybody have any tips or feels the same way? I would love to hear what others have done if they are in a similar situation. I just don’t know how to keep going forward because I’m tired of being disappointed each month.