PLEASE HELP

So I’m in a relationship with someone I’ve been with since I was 15 I’m now 26

We were together for 6 years then broke up for a year. N got back together.

During tht year he had a kid with someone n married the girl. And wen he reached out he told me he messed up n he wasn’t happy and how she was everything he didn’t want 🙄.

I gave it a chance n it was hell at first but I stuck by him out of love.

We now have a baby and a house.

So the thing that bothers me is I want to get married and he says he doesn’t want to and what’s the rush.

What irritates me is anything he wants it just gets done right away.

I feel so stupid bcuz anything I want I always get a response like oh not right now, or it’s not a good time.

I had 2 abortions because he said tht. N the baby we have he said “we don’t know if we’re guna keep it” but I did t let that happen again.

So I kind of gave him no choice.

He claims tht he loves me n wants to be with me

What I don’t understand is how is he so selfish.

He goes to the gym after getting off work every day , while I’m stuck with the baby all day. And I don’t mind bcuz I never want to take tht away from him.

But it’s getting to the point where I get no help. So it’s frustrating that wen I finally ask for something it’s only if he approves.

He wants a motorcycle, and u better believe he’s done everything to get it . License, classes. Watever.

I just don’t get it . I’m tired of living my life on his terms and he doesn’t undersatnd me and idk what to do anymore.

I feel stupid, and I feel like I’m just with someone who doesn’t care if I’m happy.

There are days I’m upset and he just says whatever I’ll leave u alone until ur not upset.

Is this how relationships are supp to be? I thought the person was supposed to care if ur happy

Just want some answers

I feel like I’ve put in the work n I’ve done everything

And it’s hurtful to hear tht there’s no reason to get married