How can I safely spike his liquor to make it taste bad, or maybe give him diarrhea? Something that’s doesn’t hurt him but makes him stop with the alcohol.

It’s been 4 years. Divorce would be extremely messy. Just want my old husband back. But liquor is a demon he won’t let go.

Edit: I will listen to your advice.

🚨🚨 I wasn’t aware it was illegal. 🚨🚨

I thought as long as it was like laxatives or something, it would be okay. But not worth going to jail over. No man is. So I guess it will just be a serious talk.

Edit: He is on anti-depression medications, would I be able to call his doctor and explain to her his alcohol problem? Because I know he won’t ever be honest about how much he drinks with her. He doesn’t think he has a problem.

Edit and back story to why I call him an alcoholic —

He has been drinking 4 nights a week, regularly for the past 4 years. The only reason he doesn’t drink for 3 days is because of his 12hr shift job, and spends those days sleeping/working, if he takes off work, he will drink. Last year, over the summer, it was awful. Absolutely his lowest, he has r@ped me, physically hurt me multiple times, emotionally hurt me. Then countless times has pulled the “Imma k**** myself” card. I’ve had to take fire arms away from him, I’ve had to physically maneuver him around because he drinks until he’s stumbling everywhere. This has been the regular for the past 4 years. The r@pe only happened once, but he still touches me when I tell him not too. If I try to hide his bottle, he yells at me until I give it back.

And I know in my head and heart, I need to leave.

But I have no idea how I’m going to be able to do that. I have no one I can stay with, and he’s kept me from having jobs, I’ve tried to work but 1-2 days after working, he wants me to quit. I don’t even know where to start when it comes to separating? Do I get a job, and hide the money? Do I divorce and struggle until I’m up? I have no idea where to start, where to go.

And I don’t want to give up because it’s literally our only issue and lots of other issues stem from it, but if he gave up alcohol, I think we could fix it/save it.