Feeling guilty about wanting a boob job.

Hey ladies I just had my daughter almost 5 months ago, I’ve been wandering a breast augmentation since I was very young. I’m extremely flat chested even an AA cup is too big on me… I’ve had consultations before and just never could make my mind up or get time off work. Then the pandemic hit I got pregnant and here I am now. I just feel guilty to get surgery and not be able to take care of her ( I wouldn’t do it until she is at least at the age of 1 or older) pregnancy was a beautiful experience but it didn’t help my boobs at all my nipples got bigger but boobs stayed small. Do any of you other moms have implants? If so how did it go for you? How was recovery? Were you scared for surgery for anything to happen to you? Thanks for your advice.