I want to just cry and give up

My period is or was a day and a half late I’ve been having symptoms for over a week of nausea increased urination darker and sore nipples more hungry and thirsty and even fatigue every early symptom I have but I just went to the bathroom and had a little bit of pink spotting when I wiped and it breaks my heart I thought it was going to be my month for once because my period is always early or on time and it’s like I want to tell myself it’s not a flow and there’s still hope but I know there isn’t and now I’m just so upset knowing it’ll be a flow any time now and I’m angry and sad at all once because it’s so hard to get pregnant but the people that don’t want a kid get pregnant so easy it seems like and that may be wrong to say idk. I’m just hurting right now and don’t have anyone to talk to