How to cope with feeling like you failed each month

Well, 10 DPO and took my third neg pregnancy test today. I’m starting to get cramps and some brown discharge so I’m sure my period will be here in 3-4 days. Of course PMSing with all time high emotions- something I haven’t experienced for YEARS since I was on the pill for 12 years with only a 1 year break when I was 20.

I’m honestly just feeling like a failure and bad for myself. Cried on the phone to my mom. My husband doesn’t understand why I’m so stressed out when we just started trying a couple of months ago now.

How do you all cope? I can’t help but self sabotage and think “well it’s never going to happen I guess.” 😞