Triggering vomit on purpose

Has anyone else done something on purpose that you knew made you throw up so that you could get it out of the way and move on with the day? I have been struggling trying to get to work each morning and I find that if I try to get dressed and ready and avoid throwing up that I get so exhausted from holding it back that eventually I can’t hold it anymore and feel defeated and go back to bed.

Today I tried something different. I got out of bed and immediately did something that would normally make me throw up instead of avoiding it. (Dumb things like brushing teeth, brushing hair, letting anything touch my neck, etc. Nothing harmful) I threw up within 5 minutes of getting out of bed and then I used the adrenaline rush to get dressed and go to work. It worked so well. I’m at work for the first time in a week.

I feel guilty cause it seems so unhealthy but I can’t keep missing work so I need to come up with a routine to get me here. I am prescribed Reglin which I take every morning/night but if I take it right when I get up then I throw up anyway cause it didn’t have time to work yet then I lose it for the day.

Advice?