Oh crap, what did we just do...?

So my husband and I just tried for our first and I am not well. Freaking the f*** out to be exact and just in a moment of "oh crap. What did we just do..."

If things happen, am I going to be able to handle this? We close on our first house in a couple weeks. I just started a new job two months ago and have no idea what I would even tell them or how I would handle that situation. Its definitely not ideal to ttc when you start a new job, but my husband and I only have a small window of time to do this for reasons I won't get into. But this is just adding to the freak out.

Im so freaking scared. Not feeling ready at all, but I'm told thats common. After 10 years together, I know we want a family of our own and we'll have to do it sometime, so why not now?! I find that I keep having to remind myself that I've got him through this, I'm not alone, and we can and will get through anything. I really think its the unknown and my extreme fear of needles causing the anxiety, but hoping someone can provide encouragement or their own experience. I just hope Im not alone in feeling like this. I don't know what to do except cry...