This feeling hurts to the core

I have been seeing this guy for an year now..I fractured my ankle real bad on New Year's <a href="https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.glow.android.eve">eve</a> and had surgery so we haven't met for almost 3 months now...well we have been talking throughout and well three weeks ago he started behaving very strangely...he started saying that he was busy,would just blue tick me on whatsapp ilir stay for hours within texting back which was so unusual of him....well I texted him and I told him that I tired of being treated like that and we didn't speak for a day,later on he asked me if I was mad at him and I told him just a lil bit cz he should just have communicated that he was busy and needed to return some clients work and also sent a screenshot of his conversation with the client...(n I insisted that I am not an angel to know that he is busy on a Sunday...I mean other Sundays he is never busy he is just resting at home so we arch up then)...anyway he told me that he was pretty upset with how I behaved and I shouldn't be accepting an apology any time soon from him and he ended up saying that I should understand that he is busy...I told him and insisted that no matter how busy someone is they will always contact the most important person in their lives...well that talk escalated into some mean words being said by him and sarcastic responses from me...but he said that he had heard what my complaint is about....well now he has kinda ghosted me..we haven't talked since we had that discussion last week it's almost 5 days now.....

Anyway I saw that he is talking to his ex recently...I don't know what to get from that but I just want to be done with this guy...I deleted our conversations and his number too..cz I see him online all the time and even at midnight but he has no time to talk to me yet he has ample time to communicate with his ex

I was really looking forward to go back to my real self so we can continue with us but I think that's not gonna happen..I feel so hurt at the moment, it's killing me to tiny pieces cz I had found my happiness but well I guess he ain't anymore..All I want is to find someone to love and be loved back,someone i can grow together with, someone who respects and listens to me...I have been through alot of heartbreaks in my life and that is all I ask for.....is it that hard to find someone genuine nowadays

Anyway I know my thoughts are over the place and I just need a shoulder to cry on or talk to as my fracture heals cz I feel like am really falling apart.Does it get better?😥😥😢😢😢💔💔💔💔