Gender Disappointment/Guilt

Have you ever been in a room full of people and feel like you disappointed everyone there? That’s exactly how I felt last night at my gender reveal. I have a son from a previous relationship and I have a daughter from my current boyfriend. I felt everything was perfect I didn’t want anymore kids I love my boy and girl and felt 100% complete with our family. But my boyfriend really wanted at least one more he always wanted a big family and so we decided to have one more. I know he wanted a boy. I felt pressure! I convinced myself it was possibly a boy because it seemed similar to my pregnancy with my son and not my daughter. His mom and family were also really hoping for a boy! All Of my boyfriends very close cousins have a set boy and girl and I know that’s what everyone expected for us. At our gender reveal everyone showed up in blue and everyone was on one side of the room, The BOY SIDE. I revealed the gender and I just felt the vibe of the room. Everyone wanted a boy so badly and I feel I disappointed everyone. It’s a girl! I know it’s out of my control but I cried when everyone left. I’m feeling so much gender disappointment and guilt for feeling disappointed. This is my last baby and I know everyone really wanted it to be a boy it feels like it was expected of me even though it was completely out of my control. I feel so sad.