I need to rant, I feel like I’m going crazy.

Little back story:

My husband and I have been trying to conceive for 3 years, we got fertility testing done last spring. They told us that my husband has a really low sperm count that only gives us a 1% chance every month. We were told our only chance was IVF, which we can’t afford. I’m regular on my cycles & I’m definitely fertile at most I’ve been late is 2 days unless I’m pregnant & I have 5 day periods. Now, fast forward to January. I was 3 days late, negative test, few hours later I started spotting. Day 2 was literally nothing but big clots, Day 3 spotting and done. I thought it was really weird. 2 weeks after my period I very lightly spotted for a week. Now, my period was supposed to start on the 9th & nothing. I took a test 2 days late & got a negative. I don’t know if I’m peeing more or I’m just going more to check for blood. I haven’t cramped with my period for years, and I don’t even know if you would call these cramps & my boobs are absolutely killing me. I tested yesterday and it was super faint, like could barely see it, & the line was only half way, so I figured invalid. Testing again later this week, but I feel like I’m crazy, because I’m not bleeding & no one is freaked by it but me.