2022 isn't looking good

March 24th I was suppose to be delivering a healthy baby boy but we lost him in November.

My husband and I decided to try for our second baby and I so want to have a 2022 baby and this cycle is my last shot at having a 2022 baby. I have felt so nauseous and tired like I did at the beginning of my last pregnancy but each test comes up negative partly because I know it's too early to test but partly because I think I won't get my 2022 baby.

This is a difficult realisation because I was suppose to have a baby in my arms this year and I probably won't and I just want to hold my baby.