Night mares

I sometimes have nightmares and I wake up yelling, hyperventilating, or gasping for air sometimes even combined with me trying to hit anything

I woke up from one repeating the word “fuck” yelling it over and over again punching my boyfriend in the back over and over and I was hitting hard

I feel so bad after I do stuff like that I’m so happy he understands I really don’t have any idea of what’s actually happening like I remember it after but in the moment I am still in the dream and scared

I also do this thing with it where if I fall back asleep soon after it then it will happen again and again and again some times there different dreams most of the time it just takes me back to the original one I try to keep myself awake for atlest 30 minutes after I wake up to avoid it but sometimes it don’t work and I just nod back off to sleep

Therapy dosnt seem to be helping she keeps wanting to dig in to my trama I don’t think that’s a good idea atlest not right now so I’m not sure if there’s anything that could help all that idk more of a vent/rant but if you got ideas please tell me about it