I lost my mother to murder in 2011 I was only 5. I didn't understand being so young and didn't even find out about her true death (I was told a horrible lie) until 13. Ever since it mentally took a toll on me, I couldn't stop imagining her death in my mind and couldn't stop thinking of her. Last summer I finally spoke out about getting help I unluckily didn't get a therapist but got medication! I'm glad I've been doing better than ever in the last almost year. But the grief of my mom is coming back and idk what to do.