I feel horrible

I don’t think i’m sexually attracted to my husband 😩 I honestly think it’s because he’s hardly home and we don’t really talk to each other as much. We haven’t been on a date in about 2 years, but he hangs with his friends almost everyday. It’s like we’re roommates. The only time we’ll have a nice conversation is when we talk about what we need to do in the house. I really don’t look at him like I did before because we just don’t have a connection anymore. Whenever he really wants to have sex I have to drink so i’d be able to do it. I tried telling him how I’ve been feeling for months now and he continues to say that I should be happy because he’s always with his friends and not with another girl.