How do I fix this?

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So I've been seeing this guy for a couple months and honestly at first we hung out as friends but we were inseparable. Everyday we would see eachother. Then about a month later, he had to move back to his hometown. I honestly fall for people fast and i can say that i love him. We honestly both met eachother while we were both broke but we had so much fun anyway. I don't have a car but he has made a 6hr drive to come see me.

The first time he came to visit was for my birthday and we had a lot of fun. Then recently he visited again just because and we still had fun.

However the first time he left he let it slip out that he loved me and he apologized for it because he doesn't know why he said that. But he kept letting it slip out and apologizing for it because he said he didn't know if he meant it. However, we were very attracted to eachother so i let it slide because he said he still liked me a lot and i made him feel some time of way.

When he came for my birthday he would say he loved me sometimes and i didn't really follow along with it because i didn't know if it was real. But idk i guess i believed it. Since he left the first time we talk otp every day. And we always tell eachother we miss eachother. Since before he left, i wanted to be his girlfriend but he would always say it's not the right time since he's leaving or because we live long distance. And honestly i completely understood because i didn't want a long distance relationship but we are exclusive so i just thought it would be together if we just became official. We've also had sex and call eachother baby... Pretty much act like a couple.

So when he comes this time around, image my disappointment when i asked him if he loved me and he nodded his head. I told him that made me sad because i genuinely thought he loved me. But even after, there was still times where it would slip, however i would either ignore it or tell me i didn't believe him. It completely broke my heart. Then he also just kept telling me he didn't want a girlfriend everytime i mentioned us being together. He would say that he was scared or sometimes he'd say he really just didn't want one. It made me sad because i honestly want a relationship but i can't let him string me along like that. He says it doesn't make a difference to him if we are boyfriend and girlfriend or not because as long as we are just for eachother why does it matter? And i tell him that he difference is there's a level of commitment.

He's a very noble person. He walks into a room and is the happiest. He really brings people's energy up. And he's crazy in his own way which i love. I really don't want to let him go but i feel like I've been fooled. Someone please tell me if there's something I'm not seeing because yes he makes a 6hr drive to see me and her have the most fun together but i feel led on. Like he keeps telling me he loves me then taking it back then he wants to treat me like a girlfriend and ends up telling me he doesn't want one (which is partly my fault for allowing that to happen.)

He also told me he's not ready to be a dad. Which is understandable but this weekend we were being irresponsible and i told him that so I'm not ready either so if I'm pregnant we both need to step it up. But we both have the support from eachother and our families.... He ended up just being quiet about it and honestly the first thing that came to my head was "i can't rely on him." Which he is the type to help but i don't want to force anyone to be a family with me and I'll look out for mines either way.

But honestly i want to end it. Like i said, it's a deal breaker for me that he doesn't want a relationship and i don't want to waste my time. I just don't know if it's right for me to do. I love him and i wish i didn't have to do this but it makes me so sad the way i been fooled. Any thoughts?

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