Help with my Relationship

Hello there girls and guys, I hope someone can give me some nice constructive feedback without being hurtful.

I’m a really sticky situation.

I’ve been with my boyfriend for 5 years and he is the most thoughtful, wonderful boyfriend someone could ask for. He always puts me first, is a blessing to have by your side, he can even cook and clean and believes in equality. Crazy, I know I’ll never find another one like this.

The problem is, our love life is bomb and our sex life is dead. He doesn’t like kissing and he isn’t experienced in Bed. I am not either but I have different desires than he does and think I can do it better. He often tells me he doesn’t think he will ever make me happy. Our sexual chemistry is really low but our love and friendship is just so high.

What the hell do I do?

Last year he totally lost interest in having sex with me because I wasn’t as attractive mentally and physically ( we fought a lot and I let go of myself ) I waited this whole time on him and hoped it would get better. I now am in a better place.. but now I lost interest because he never wanted to kiss me ( he does not like kissing ) and I also didn’t want to be a teacher. I know how stupid this sounds. He then cheated on me in a whore house due to lack of sex. This broke me and I wanted to leave him, but I put myself together and understood that I also wasn’t giving him sex for about 5 months. I just can’t help but feel stupid because I never cheated on him, though. He did put a lot of effort and bought toys for us and tried really hard, really.

Now I’m still crazy horny, alone and not having any sex from him and we aren’t kissing either.

What the hell do I do here. Like I said he is a wonderful boyfriend but we do not have natural chemistry at all, it all has to be made from scratch.