Another one

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I had a live birth in 2018. I had a missed miscarriage in 2019 so I stopped trying. Fast forward to 2022 I get pregnant again. A week later that baby is gone too. I don't know how to deal with this. I don't understand it. I keep thinking why me?? My mom had 14 freaking kids and she was a terrible mother who took off when i was one.. and I can't even have a 2nd child who was so desperately wanted and loved. My heart hurts so much