I don’t know

I don’t know who I’m writing to.

I feel alone.

I hope you all don’t mind me posting here.

Been trying to conceive our first baby for 16months with no luck.

Had 4 (now 5) chemicals. All fail by 6 weeks. Never anything on scan.

Bloods for lupus anticoagulant and cardiolipin are borderline. It’s a sticky blood thing I think.

Got a faint line last week and started progestogen and then a few days later advised to start aspirin and clexane. Started those the day the line was darkest and then the following morning it was already fading so I think we started those too late.

Bloods today confirmed hcg <1

Which is sad.

But also been advised not to try to get pregnant for 6 weeks so they can repeat the bloods

without any recent pregnancy.

To check the sticky blood factors again.

And that is the part that made me really sad / annoyed / all the emotions rolled up.

I feel like my hope has been taken away