Feeling lost…

Long story short my boyfriend and I have been back and forth since January…. Memorial Day weekend after another week split up I agree to hear him out and see if we could try one last time. I was ovulating, told him I was and that he needed to pull out or condom. Or we could just “play with fire” and take a plan b. So I ended up taking a plan b… surprise. It didn’t work, silly me didn’t know it wouldn’t if ovulation had already started. I was debating whether or not to tell him or just to keep on the DL and go my separate ways. I spoke to my therapist about it and she said I shouldn’t hide it but maybe give him the option to go if he chooses to go… so I did just that… he’s pissed. He thinks I planned this. Worried about the public eyes looking at him for it. Has just been very ugly. I’m trying to give him the benefit of doubt of shock because I’m just in as much shock myself but he’s just being so hateful and rude. Do I give it time?? Or do I come up with a bogus thing and leave and go MIA and raise this baby alone? 😭😭😭