Dear Spencer…

Why? Why have you chosen this path in life? Why did you choose the path of drugs when you know your mom died of an overdose? Even though we didn’t see each other much except for the holidays, I felt a connection with you and your mom like I’ve never felt before. She’s been gone a long time. I didn’t go to her funeral because my parents never went and I was too young to go by myself. Please don’t continue this. Please stop. You are needed much more than you know. Even though you are more like a distant cousin, we aren’t even blood related, I have alway felt you were my cousin. You were the big brother I never had. Please get clean, I’ll keep praying for you. I’ll never stop believing in you.