Mental block when masturbating… my ex

Hello!

So, my boyfriend and I broke up in early May (like a couple weeks ago). I am not ready to start dating again, but I miss sex, so naturally I started masturbating again. I hadn’t since the break up because I really was just sad and the last thing on my mind was sex. But, I’m human and I’m horny again. 😩Anyways, here’s my problem… when I’m masturbating I can’t get his face out of my mind. Like I want to moan his name, and yet I know it’s so wrong. So this has created this ultimate mental block for me. I can’t make myself orgasm anymore because the only thing I have in my head is me riding him, or when he would fuck me so good while my legs were up on his shoulders haha. 🤪 Or I find myself wanting my ass slapped, my hips grabbed, or even choked, and I can’t figure out a way to satisfy this alone. 🙃 I really just want to not have this mental image of him in my head during a time that I’M making MYSELF feel good. I’ve got to believe this has happened to other people out there and I just need to know what to do to get over this! 🥰

Thank you ❤️