I feel depressed

I feel so beyond depressed. Why? Because I’m scared I will never be able to have a baby. I lost my virginity young and have had unprotected sex. Never gotten pregnant. I don’t want to adopt. I just want a baby that’s biologically mine and feel what pregnancy is like. We’ve been trying for awhile now and I have done two rounds of clomid so far. I see all these people who have babies and it makes me sad. I think what makes me ever sadder is I see people who have babies that treat their kids like absolute garbage and I’m over here begging and crying for one. It hurts. I haven’t been on because this app reminds me of it. I’m hurt. Truly. I’m so depressed over this.