TW: my journey of a MMC

Hello loves,

I just wanted to speak my journey into existence with women who understand me.

I found out I was pregnant May 25th. I was 4 weeks. 2 weeks later we had our first US, with a heart beat of 124, all things said everything looked perfect.

Fast forward to one week later, I decided to go in for a private US, and the tech could not find a heart beat and told me to contact my doctor ASAP. My heart broke.

I called my doctor crying and she got me in right away for a follow up US just to make sure. And sure enough, no heart beat. We were shocked.

Today, I had a D&C. My last miscarriage was 2 years ago, and I passed at home. I did not want to go through that pain again. After surgery today,

I woke up, and felt a slight bit of pain, but a slight bit of relief knowing I can now move on, and grieve my 2nd loss of my baby. As of right now, I feel lots of pressure down low, and some spotting.

We are ready to try again, as soon as we are cleared because we are ready to become parents. 🌈

This is not something I would wish on my worst enemy, no mother should feel the emptiness that comes along with the loss of her baby. For those who are suffering along with me, I pray for comfort and love.. ❤️ and we WILL get our rainbows soon.