Terrified for my 3rd csection

Ever since I found out I was pregnant I’ve been terrified. I’m so scared that something is going to go very wrong this time and that I’m going to die and leave my kids without me.. I don’t want to leave my children. I don’t want to not be able to see them grow up and go to school, their first dances, first girlfriends/boyfriends, first job. I don’t want to not be here for my kids and I’m so so scared that because I had problems last csection that I’m going to end up dying. I had postpartum hemorrhage and postpartum hypertension. I was also told that 3 or more csections can cause serious problems. I don’t want to die. I don’t want to leave my kids. I cry myself to sleep almost every night.

Has anyone else on here had 3 or more csections and everything went fine?? I’m just so scared for my kids.. they are only 2 and 1..