Severe Anxiety & Pregnancy

Reaching out to all the mums and mums-to-be that experience high functioning anxiety. I'm needing some reassurance/advice/ or just someone to talk to.

I have always had anxiety but TTC for me has heightened it substantially. I unfortunately had 2 missed miscarriages last year with the second having complications and leaving me quite traumatised. That was over 6 months ago and ever since my anxiety has just been debilitating and developed into health anxiety and depression. I had myself convinced of all these terrible things that could be wrong with me. I wouldn't rest until I had all the check ups, blood tests, ultrasounds, MRI, and endoscopy. Doctors could not find anything physically wrong with me which has really helped ease my mind and help with the health anxiety.

Last week I found out I was 4 weeks pregnant. I am absolutely overjoyed, but the anxiety continues. Where my mind is now is, I'm worried that all this stress and anxiety I've put my body through will have negative affect to my baby (I'm now 5 weeks). I'm wondering if there's anyone out there that maybe can relate? That has suffered with severe anxiety, and have been able to carry full term, and have a healthy pregnancy. I want nothing more to be thankful and to enjoy this pregnancy, but my instrusive thoughts are taking it all away from me. I know this is a long and complicated post. I'm feeling so alone and desperate. I don't have any friends or family that I feel will understand me. Any response would be so appreciated. ❤